Hey, it's been awhile. I can't believe I haven't checked xanga out or written in it for over a month. It IS pretty much dead. Not to mention a little bit frustrating with this new features and looks. Anyways, so I'm a 3rd year college student in the University at Buffalo. My experiences here have been good and bad. I feel like I've learned so much in so little time, yet have even so much more to learn. The moment my dad drove me up here, I just couldn't wait to get rid of him and start living on my own. It took me merely SECONDS to adjust being away from home, but WEEKS to adjust living with people. It was a bit sad because I didn't get this homesick feeling that I had hoped, but I guess in a way it's a good thing. I still remember on the first few days, I would get at least eleven calls. If not from my mom, then my sister during work. At first, it was a complete conflict with my roommate. He's a year younger than me, is in the same sibling position meaning he too has two older sisters, and he's my complete opposite personality wise. Through the disagreements and arguements, shouts and verbal ping pong war, we managed to respect each other's differences and just "get along" and live together in the same room, keeping it in one piece. As for my suitemates, there's one who's always away and never in the room while the other one is a joyful go lucky guy. Like every people you meet in life, you can't expect everything from just one meeting. Over time, you have to just accept the good and the bad side of them and not harshfully judge them because of their past. As for the rest of the floor, I pretty much "dominate" half the floor? Let's see... There's the two RAs Hersh and Herlynne. And then... Stephanie, Chelsey, Wendy, Ying, Palkwin, Mike, Yosuke, Elisha, Eva, Yeesoo and two asian girls and some blacks. All of them are awesome and really nice. We're kinda like a 7th floor family in a way. I remember the first night doing laundry, no one was there and suddenly this female RA comes back with all her stuff. Curious to see this new person moving back in, my head pops through the doorway, and she just smiles and waves at me. And my head would just pop back away. LOL My first time ever having an ear infection which WASN'T fun at all, I was literally nearly deaf on my right ear. I thought I had water in it or something, but usually it would dry the next day after I wake up. And my first time having a blood clot which wasn't fun as well. Painful, but healed rather quickly. Cafeteria food is decent, not crap or the best, but decent enough for me to eat a plate or two. It's like a buffet and I find it had for myself to just eat as much because it makes me want to take a crap as soon as I go up. Five craps a day, I don't think I ever crap that much back at home! LOL Lately, I've been doing good deeds where to me, wasn't such a big deal. But then you come to realized even the SMALLEST things make the BIGGEST differences. So in a sense, it makes me feel really needed and nice to be needed. On the serious side, my mind's been bothering me about some things: the academic aspect of being here at UB. Currently, I'm planning to major in both PSY/MATH so that makes me a double major, but I feel like I'm just majoring WHATEVER and don't really know where I'm going in life with this degree. Maybe I want to be a social worker or a teacher? But then I don't really want to be a teacher because at the risk of school shootings and all. I find psychology very interesting and math seems to be a strong point of mines, but there are times where I just don't "feel" like going to lecture classes because I really don't learn anything. The way it works here is... Lecture notes are posted and printed out BEFORE the day of the class. With that said, if you actually read the powerpoint notes printed out that night, you pretty much have the entire class in your hands. Not only that but there are times where I actually bring the textbook and read during class and after finishing a chapter and I look up, I think "Is he still seriously going on with the powerpoint?" and I just feel like it's ridiculus and think "Why am I wasting my time being here when I can read back in my dorm or catch more sleep?" It's great that everyone has an idea what they wanna do, but for me it's just PLAIN SAD to just do two majors and not really feel motivated. I mean I am sorta, but not fully enough to be driven. I'm "dreamless" and "goalless" I miss Shaolin back at home, but I do use the gym here which isn't bad at all. I feel like I'm back in HS again working out my arms and becoming a gym addict again. Of course, there's always me and my curiousity (or nosyness I like to call it) where I poke into others' businesses and get tangled into them. Naughty me. So much in mind, spinning crazy in my head, yet I have to go on in life. I still have so much more to write, but for now, this will be it. Until then. | 
